late night

Sorry, I am running really late tonight, I went to Buffalo Wild Wings tonight with the guys, and I am proud to say I did not drink anything but soda. They kept trying to get me to have a beer, but not only am I broke, but beer is making my tummy stick out more then my wallet. Not to mention the fact I said I was going to give up drinking because it is just dragging me down in life and I really dont need all the bullshit associated with drinking too much all the time. I had a really good time tho, all the people that worked there thought it was odd that I didnt have a beer in my hand. I find that a sign that things are on the upswing in my life.

I heard back from my ex girlfriend tonight about that email I sent her, she didn't seem too happy about the whole thing but asked me if she could take the night to think about it. I of course said yes, because I am praying to God that she will say yes, and we can give this whole thing one last try. I really don't want to push her out of my life, but I can't be her friend either. I love her too much, and have given too much of my life, to just sit back and let it go. The biggest thing that bothers me about the whole being friends thing is that if she starts dating someone further down the road is how am I going to react. I mean, I know exactly how I would react and thats not a good thing tho. Like I said tho, I am hoping and praying that things will turn out in a good way. I really miss her, and I want to prove to her that we can work through our problems together.

In the entire time we had been together I really dont think we ever really sat down and tired to figure out what was really causing us to be acting a certain way. We both just took the bad and pushed it aside instead of trying to work it out and find a solution for what was wrong. I dont think I can let that happen anymore in any relationship I am ever in, especially not if she takes me back. Now, the more I sit here and think about it the more I realize we never actually tired to work out our problems and differences we just kinda pushed them aside and went about our business. And thats not what a relationship is about, I mean, we need to be mature enough to talk about whats wrong while at the same time being mature enough to take whatever comes our way in proper stride.

Well enough about me and my relationship troubles. I still hate my job, yes its true folks. I really do hate my job and tonight it is official, even the guy who started with me at the same time I did, in the same position I did, finally admitted that he is also sick and tired of all the bullshit that comes with that job. We have been treated like shit pretty much since the get go, but it seems the longer we stay there the worse it gets. Also tonight we realized that the last year at the company has gone by so fast that we will be getting really old there fast. One year has really felt like just a couple of months, and I am scared that I will get trapped in that job like so many other people in that place have. I mean, c'mon who really wants to polish rings for 20+ years? I know I sure as hell don't want that job the rest of my life.

Anyway enough complaining for one night, I need to get to bed. I have had a really long day and I am ready for some much needed sleep. Gym tomorrow (again) they were working on my machines today I couldn't get a chance to work out on them as of yet. Goodnight.

M

okay, so maybe

After a really good nights sleep last night, I woke up and the swelling in my hand has gone down to almost nothing, which is a really great sign that my hand is indeed not broken. So since my hand is not broken, thats really great news, now only if I can get something to clear out this infected cut I have on my ear, I will be dandy. Ya, I know it seems like I am a mess right now, but that seems to be the trend of my life right now. If its not one thing its the next.

I spent most of my afternoon watching tv and cleaning my room and rearranging all my furniture and trying to pack up some boxes to just move all the BS out of my room. I am headed back to work tomorrow, and I am really nervous because my boss seemed pretty pissed that I took the time off for having been sick. From what I heard I guess we got a pretty large gold order because like everyone was working on saturday to try and help fill it out. Well I need to get my rest because I am going to hit up the gym tomorrow and yes I really do mean it this time. Goodnight.

M

"In a big family the first child is kind of like the first pancake. If its not perfect, thats okay, there are alot more coming along." ~ Supreme Court Justice Antonin Scalia.

Stupid COX

Sorry I have not been able to update this in a few days, my Internet has been down at my house. It has been a pretty shitty couple days at work, it turns out they lied to me about my job, they shorted me on my paycheck, I got in trouble for something I didn't do, and they won't give me a pay raise. SO needless to say I am pretty pissed off at them. I won't go off on the details as to why things go wrong at work, since I can't give away what goes on there. Cool thing is I did get offered a weekend job in Lynchburg doing some security on the side. The pay isn't the worlds greatest, and I do have to drive an hour, but he hooked it up to where I can work every other weekend so I can still have some time off.

Well today I went shooting at my buddy Lee's out in Bedford, I shot my .40, and used my friends 12 gauge shotgun, Colt 1911 and Ruger .22. We shot about 500 rounds, so needless to say I am pretty stress free right now. Now I will say this, I am about the luckiest dude alive right now, as I was shooting, I for some reason shot too low and hit the target support which happened to be made of metal. I heard the zip of metal, and realized what I did, we walked up and saw that the round was stuck in the metal frame. I was standing right in front of that target and if it had shot back and hit me I would have been screwed because we were in the sticks. If my camera were working right now I would upload a picture of what almost took me out.

Here's some interesting news for ya, Roanoke City Councilman Alfred Dowe resigned today over some very bad mismanagement of City money. He spent almost $15,000 in travel and food receipts for 2007, but here's the kicker in some occasions he billed both the state and city for re-reimbursement. The Mayor asked him to step down and he did. Now what needs to happen is they need to let Rich Cranwell take his spot. I believe that after he placed 4th in the Primary a couple of weeks ago, he should be allowed to be given the nomination for the seat in which he received enough votes to get, but at the time was not available. Rich would be the best person to take that seat, he is not someone who will let petty things get in the way of whats right for Roanoke. I will write a little bit more about what's happening in Roanoke in tomorrow nights post.

From now on at the end of every post I will be leaving a quote that is pretty relevant to whats been going on in my day. So here's today's.

"The tragedy of life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach." ~ Benjamin E. Mays